It’s been a while since I’ve put something meaningful to read on here because I haven’t been all too philosophical about anything ‘public.’ I need to start getting back to putting my thoughts down on paper instead of only thinking them.
Being the kind of person I want to be in all aspects is tough and if I set my goals too high I’m afraid I won’t ever reach them. Inversely, if I set them too low then I’d be limiting myself. Finding that balance has always been my problem (and I’m sure a lot of other people’s as well). Halfway through dinner I realized that on I’ve surpassed my initial goal of balancing graduate school with life and I haven’t set a new one. I think talking to someone at any depth for the first time brings that to the surface because otherwise those sorts of sentiments lay dormant. I can’t notice a gradual change in my physical appearance, but if I look at photographs from years ago I can tell I’m getting older. The same, for me, holds true when I look at how much I’ve grown as a person in the past five years. I left high school with a limited concept of my capabilities and now I feel as though I’m able to “be something.” What that something is will most likely be my next goal.